2017年12月10日星期日

驚夢咋醒, 迷悟之間

Bill
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These days I reflected on the whole incident again and again. I am kind of glad that the xxx store manager caught me red-handed this time. Honestly, this is not the first time I do shoplifting. I would not say I do this out of greed but more like I got a sense of satisfaction after I succeeded every time. It all started with a simple incident when I was four/ five. I remembered my mum brought me to a bread shop choosing bread but I forgot to return the tongs afterwards. My mum was like why you got the tongs in your hand after 5 mins walk from the shop but then we were in a hurry at that time so she brought the tongs home instead of returning them to the shop immediately. (I do not know what she did with the tongs afterwards tho.)

I do not know if the above incident affected me but when I was in my primary, I started to do shoplift. I only stole small items. Whenever I succeeded, I had a sense of superiority with a voice saying in my mind "those shopkeepers are idiots." I stopped doing that when I started my secondary. But then after I came out to work, from time to time when I was in stress, I would go to steal small items from stores. I very seldom did that as I really know it was a wrong act but I simply could not get rid of this habit.

Looking back, I am the real idiot and I am kind of lucky that this time when I caught red-handed the value of the item was only HK$xx. I was stupid enough not thinking of the consequence it would bring especially to my professional qualification and career path and not to mention how it would break the heart of those who loved me. I am not a person who like hiding things from others but this is one of the big secrets I hid all time. Except you, I do not know who I can share this with at the moment.

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這是求助人今早寫給我的電郵, 是最近通訊的第16篇。她算是第二位向我坦白承認一向有偷竊習慣的人。我把店鋪名稱及所涉銀碼隱藏了, 以免無意中披露她的身分。這人有點傻, 用真姓名給我寫, 既是專業人士, 就有專業團體的會員名冊, 萬一遇上騙子, 用電郵內容來要脅、敲詐、勒索, 問你怎辦? 所以我多番呼籲, 叫人寫給我時不要披露太多個人資料, 就是這個原因。有些美女, 甚至附上玉照, 這真的使我不太高興。不是我嫌她們不達標準, 而是樣貌於我而言是totally irrelevant的考慮, 管她是母夜叉, 我只看案件性質, 而不看人種、國籍、職業和相貌的。早兩天就有位小姐強調自己是香港人, 言下之意, 她不是大陸人。殊不知寫給我的大陸尖子碩士生都起碼十幾廿個。如果幫不到的, 就算是九天玄女下凡也無辦法。也是早幾天, 有位說自己上庭那天就會21歲了的女生, 以前有5次盜竊定罪, 這次怕得要死, 像問卜一樣寫給我, 我就不跟她客氣, bluntly put it, 你入去過聖誕喇。所以, 別以為我心腸軟, 我一向講事實, 愛憎分明。

上面那位專業人士, 為何對我坦白信任到這程度, 我估計是她真的希望解決自己的行為問題, 以免重蹈覆轍。對着個陌生人講, 好過對個密友講, 不幸遇到個兩面三刀, 是非當人情的朋友訴說, 到其時全世界(除了她自己)都知道, 那就慘了。QS醫生曾經問我, 有沒有叫這些人去求醫。我回覆這女士時, 也叫她一旦再有盜竊念頭, 一定要尋求專業治療。

我感覺到最近控方似乎收緊了酌情不予檢控的態度, 早兩天有被告申請獲批, 貨品只涉及50幾元, 第一堂卻不批准, 要押後多上一堂。另外我還有一宗涉及80多元的, 第一堂也不獲批, 押後了等再上庭由律政司考慮, 在香港時跟老友談起, 他也在最近做當值律師時遇到同樣情況。

如果律政司收緊了審批, 我不用應付客仔, 就可以清閒一點, 多看一些閒書了, 睡到半夜也不用頭痛咋醒了。

26 則留言:

  1. Did you know Barrister Albert Poon from Sir Oswald Cheung’s Chambers? He passed away today.

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    1. I was sad to read the news when a mag alerted me. I know Albert.

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    2. 見到佢照片,還對他有些印象,官仔骨骨,當時他經常在圖書館.

      Terry

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    3. https://www.hk01.com/sns/article/140220?utm_content=buffer375fb&utm_medium=Social&utm_source=facebook+hk01&utm_campaign=buffer

      RIP

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    4. 見識過他打元朗4義士案 為D1辯護 it was a disaster.....

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    5. 你算是那一門的修養, 在這時候去批評人的訟辯能力

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    6. 施行缺席審訊

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    7. 909: wasnt referring to his skill.........

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  2. 而家資訊咁發達 上網一查大把案例
    好難可以收緊呀?

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    1. 不違反成文的趨勢,當然可以收緊。
      B'J

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    2. 11:27

      案件在審訊程序未完成已經撤銷檢控,何來會成為案例?

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  3. 好病態....希望佢搵到人幫佢,見下輔導都好
    我相信佢既問題唔係貪心
    佢一日唔解決佢個心裡問題,佢每次行過超級市場一樣會想偷野
    忍到一次,忍唔到黎緊幾十年幾百次,幾千次

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    1. 想就醫的會找你、聽你講、吃你開的藥, 找我的是想不留下案底或求輕判, 我叫他們去尋求輔導或看醫生, 會有人聽嗎? So far得一個。他們案件完結了, 我就無牙力了。我仲做得乜?

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    2. 不要背負大多擔子。總有個boundary, 幫不了或不用幫。

      Terry

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    3. 你放心, 我越來越鍚身, 有的人當我是點心, 即叫即蒸, 寫個email黎, 10分鐘內未答, 就連珠炮發, 一個接一個重覆咁傳來, 我就啋你都傻, 唔覆, 攤到凍晒先, 一啲禮貌都無。如果要收錢既, 就無咁多人揾我。亦有啲人很好的, 簡單答幾句,都千多萬謝。

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    4. 兔兔也是這樣的 對本土港獨 幫到多少就多少 而且不計名氣 完全看緣分

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    5. Haha, we are very different. I pull the people from the wrong side of the law to the right side. You push them further to the wrong side.

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    6. 標少,你有所不知,政府排精神科唔知要排到幾時,私家又唔係個個都俾得起。香港醫療保險好多時都唔包精神科(有都好多限制)。如果真係要快睇精神科唯一個方法就係通過急症室轉介(小弟唔係建議濫用急症室,但現實上你話自己係偷野傾向而經門診轉介政府專科,你等返幾年先有得睇)

      精神科資源缺乏係全球性問題,而情況只會越來越差

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    7. 當然你可做既係有限,以現在香港精神科既模式,唯一可以做就係強制班友入院,醫好先出黎。社區治療在香港既環境下暫時行唔通

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    8. 1056: except the law is no law. wasnt enacted by the people.

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  4. Agree with Terry.

    Old BJ

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  5. 雖然習慣性偷竊是一種病態,看醫生可能可以醫治,但相信總比不上一次深刻的教訓有效,被捕後內心的煎熬才是令他們不再犯案的良藥
    徹底的痛一次能令他們畢生難忘也能令這種病徹底斷尾根治
    如果經歷過那種痛苦都執意再犯,相信再好的醫生也不能治好他們的心魔
    雖然有些人未必珍惜改過的機會,但相信受bill少影響從會正軌的人也不少,凡是想好的方面想相信他們會改過吧!

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    1. 希望那些人被拉到是當頭棒喝, 畢竟偷竊被捉到還是佔少數, 沒有那麼多beginner's luck, 再犯的我會冷待。每每見到學歷高的專業人士的個案, 都使我揑一把汗, 前途命懸一線, 我對他們都會講多幾句。

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    2. https://hk.news.appledaily.com/local/daily/article/20040928/4336738

      被捉到都不一定會當頭棒喝,如夢初醒。

      https://www.top1health.com/Article/12233

      好像上文最後一段,要看當事人自己的意願。

      正如介煙一樣,像時間夠了、吸夠了,都要個人自己想介先得。

      可以做乜? 都只可以提佢哋如果覺得有需要,可向醫生或心理治療師尋求幫助。要幫的,實有人可以幫到佢哋,只好問他們願意嗎。

      聖經說「你們尋求我,若專心尋求我,就必尋見。 因為凡祈求的,就得著;尋找的,就尋見;叩門的,就給他開門。」

      Terry

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    3. 深刻的教訓無咩用
      偷野,同吸毒一樣,只係個病徵

      吸毒既人,好多人都試過因為吸毒過量入醫院/返唔到工/其他生活問題
      但係如果佢地問唔到一個減壓既方法,佢地最後都係會做返一樣既野

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      Bill 講得arm,搵我果d 本身都係比較有insight
      或者大d動機想處理個根本問題既人

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      政府精神科,一般唔做呢d評估服務的
      除非係 court 要求精神科report
      但係好明顯,唔可能每一個case 都搵精神科

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